仰望着发呆

Grandma Is Old

Grandma is old, for a long time.

Eight decades of years have curved deep wrinkles across her forehead and dented her cheeks that were plump when I was a small kid. Her white hair is studded with a few black hair which seems to be turning white soon. Her tender and warm hands have been dried and weaken by the force of nature. The burden of age bent her back and gave her a staggering figure.

Grandma is old, in the way she always sighs.

Grandma did almost all of the housework in the past, but now she can not afford them all any longer. Diligent though she still is, her aging body fails to resist the invasion of weakness. The times of having a rest in doing housework gradually increases and she has to give up some heavy work that she was used to. Besides, she is always complaining about feeling faint when doing work but pays no attention to our requests to ask her to rest. Insomnia is becoming her trouble day by day, for I can often hear her continuous sighs in the night.

Grandma is old, for his only grandson is not the baby in her arms.

Grandma is a traditional Chinese woman, so I, her only grandson, am the whole world to her. From the beginning of my memory, grandma has been so tightly related to my life that I can not imagine a world without her. I truly know that grandma is one who loves me most in the world. Whatever I do—I even yelled at her sometimes very impatiently, she has never been angry to me. She is always the one who cares me and protects me. She devotes her life to me but I have nothing to return. The moment of leaving home for Tianjin, I saw tears wet her eyes and she turned her back to me sobbing in the door. Deep sorrow grabbed my heart and tears nearly rushed out of eyes.

Grandma is old, and I don’t want to lose her.

During the days in Tianjin, the feelings of missing home often hovers over my heart. When thinking about her, I am in the shadow of being afraid to lose her, not only for her unstable health but also for that I am not by her side. I know that she needs me as well as I needs her. So, I do not want to lose her, my dear grandma.